brain

my head is a hellhole

when I sleep, I have nightmares
when I'm awake, I can't sleep
when I'm alive, I want to be dead
when I die...
well, then I'll not worry.

but I don't die
I never die
I insist on being alive
my instinct leads me to life.

I can't fight against it
reason versus will
emotion versus logic
and I'm inside this hurricane
this thing that makes my head explode from inside out
I'm screaming
I'm suffocating
and yet I live
I survive

this is crazy
maybe I'm going crazy

somebody, please
help me

help me




I need help


I beg you